every person is on journey to achieving something or reaching a destination others to find themselves. This is a highlight of relatable facts about this journey in form of poetry , short stories and facts we know but overlook their impact. Simply beyond imagination.
°Here’s the first step of a thousand miles yet to be covered…°
JOURNEY TO BEYOND. (JTB)
🙋Hey there😊…
can we talk about the sky
the moon and the stars
how the light from the sun stirs
thoughts of harmony and rage
can we place our hopes for a better world in writing
can we construct a statement
to bring enlightment
that being you is perfect
that accepting another
as they are has an effect
on making the world a better place~Ngugi
Before one executes an idea there are several drives that could prompt the move. They range from need for self-actualization to reaching out to people. Having a blog is an idea I have had long since I realized writing could make a positive impact on peoples lives. That and the craving to let people understand some factors that affect all of us directly or indirectly.
Journey to beyond will range from poetry to short stories to anything that words can become.
The inspiration ranges from personal experiences to encounters with other people and their experiences. Therefore if you happen to have a matter out there reach-out to your homegirl .
Lets crawl, walk, run, fly, sail, however as long as we get to beyond.
Testing the waters for self because maybe your turn the waters aren’t as deep and you can trick the currents to dance to your tune,
This is the new age regardless,
Youth is hopeful
Of better days and softer landings
Of certainty that life in its irrepressible surprises can be lures this time to tow the line
Youth is unruly
It shows up with conviction of times being different yet on reflection are truly the same
Dances with the embers of fire hoping no damage and if any severity can survive
Youth is fleeting
Soon riddled with nothing but good old days
Packed up as memories of the hay-days
Shared in pieces of places and people we cross paths with.
Forms lessons and joys, regrets and celebrations of a life well lived
While youth cannot be tamed, it can only be experienced for self in the aspiration that no harm done and if any survivable .
To the fleeting , unruly, hopeful, vibrant, beautiful, charming youth
Take me slowly, the urge to rock me for the full experience may topple me over, though this could be the catching up, what’s left of the time for you and I, let us savour the moment and toast to a day at a time.
It most certainly shows cycles of life and how time, constant yet fleeting and unpausing pockets moments.
Grief… Trust is to shake certainty, shine light in corners of memories you were oblivious to yet remember fondly or begrudgingly.
Grief… The overwhelming love and desire displayed yet seeking out assignment but the mission is accomplished and cannot be revisited.
Grief…
The closed door you wail at but no amount of deafening screams, lamentations or downpour of tears can nudge
Even as a bystander it feels familiar, tingles an innate fear or takes you to a door so similar yet foreign , this is not your home but you see your reflection in their tears.
How do we go from here?
You may wish to close yourself off to living, walk around with embers because the warmth connects you or feels familiar…
Let it consume what’s left of us, or let the season pass and see a new dawn…
Will it take away the pain?
Hardly…
But it will show you the joy of small moments, the beauty of here and now, the present and it’s fleeting charm we oh so often take for granted.
So grief
Though unwanted maybe the stark reminder that tomorrow is not promised on the constants of today… So live♥️
Intuition alarms setting off or not, YOU TRUST ME?
*softly* right?
Then swallow what I say I am and hush your doubts of what you see?
Because your trust is my right!!
I will give you a show to remember
the unforgettable, chiefly british.
Umechezwa is a Sheng word for fraud. Now we’ve all encountered a chiefly British in form of people we hold close to strangers. Sometimes it is in person or over the internet. Whatever the encounter, its bound to leave a mark.
In some people its the inability to trust; others it’s the building walls around them to ensure absolutely no one crosses those boundaries. Some it’s completely avoiding anything affiliated to it all together.
Its given names: for love it’s clowning; being fooled into doing or giving something willingly it’s conning and creating an illusion to steal money it’s fraud. Have you had an experience? If you have see below:
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Here is a given example, a story: I avoid sitting on front seats of matatus. Why? You may ask. One time I boarded one feeling quite under the weather. I had to switch seats to the front due to nausea. There was a passenger who gladly moved to the next seat so I was the one at the door. For some odd reason, when I sat there the door automatically had an issue locking properly. As the matatu sped of, there goes the door flying open. You guy!!!! I was so frightened, it happened so unexpectedly. Conductor “madam unacheza na maisha tebu shikilia mlango. Naona imeanza kusumbua” ( Madam you are joking with life, hold the door, I think it has an issue. The conductor advised me to hold the door as we could stop because its on the high way.
*Let’s pause… hats off for the chiefly british*. The door was heavy and the matatu driver wasn’t slowing down. The “gentleman” beside me suggests to help with my bags as I try not to fall of the speeding vehicle. My intuition is on fire but so is my mind at the thought of falling off. Suddenly, the matatu makes a U-turn to the direction we were from. Conductor says “Madam tumeona twende tukatengenezewe mlango, shika pesa yako upande gari ingine kwa ile stage.”
I cross the road and board the next matatu, only to sit and find myself phoneless (sobs). During the commotion, the man beside me took my phone in the guise of helping me and zipped my bag. Now that I think about it, in a normal scenario I would not have boarded the matatu. It looked a bit road unworthy and the sun was scorching hot but I was unwell. At the moment it looked like the best option compared to collapsing. In the matatu I would have yelled “shukisha”- (let me alight). That’s the thing the chiefly british thrives in chaos and acts when you least expect.
I don’t know in what manner you have encountered a chiefly british, it may be emotional, physical or financial. Like being a relationship with a cheat; you clicked on a wrong link and there went your data or machine; you made a wrong investment; you were conned into giving your possessions to someone; you trusted someone and they daggered you in the back a good one. It spells loss in the fact that you have to go a step back to recover what you lost. Oh did I mention, the self reprimanding of why it all spelled doom and you did nothing about it, just sat there waiting for it to escalate, you know benefit of the doubt. More red flags than a communist parade but for certainty purposes, well!!!.
Now experiencing fraud is moving if you haven’t it won’t hurt to be quiet or gentle if you do not understand, as opposed to invalidating. I don’t deny some are laughable (like mine, my gosh) but give the person time to process. My two cents in this journey from experience and shared stories would be (not as an expert):
Forgive self.- Trust if you knew it was dangerous you would have ran. It is hard to retell the story without somehow looking or sounding dumb but that is okay, forgive yourself. These things sometimes are illusions and we fall for them with all sensory organs functioning.
Take time to heal.- It is very easy to be stuck there depending on the damage done, especially if it was emotional. It is okay to grieve. Healing is not linear, some days are heavy and vivid but is there progress? If yes the stay on track. Cry if you must, journal, do an activity that gives you peace. It is okay to seek professional help too.(Next point)
Seek help. -This would mostly apply to physical and emotional damage. You may need to assess the damage with a professional. In some instances, you won’t get justice, unfortunately, or it wont be served in a manner that you feel is justified but you need to move on from it. Asking for help does not make you weak, darling you are strong enough to admit something is up.
Learn and let go. – Put it down please, it’s to heavy and leaves no room for growth. With a love scenario, set boundaries and have a checklist don’t make excuses for shady people’s behaviors. Life can start at whatever age it doesn’t warrant to kill yourself slowly over the hope of someone changing. (It may be harder than it sounds but go for it).With investments take risks again, just calculate better. Read more ask and be willing to learn from experts. If its a stolen item, imagine its replaceable but your sanity isn’t, wherever you go it from its fine. It was one of a kind, agreed but let it go. Life has so much more to offer beyond pain let it go.
Lastly, be gentle with self.- Now I might need to say that incidences may repeat themselves and you find yourself in the same place. Be gentle there’s no harm in resetting. Life is a journey and some paths we take lead us to the same destination. If it does its a wake up call to re-strategize, by all means do it. In the words of Rixx Matatizo on a Naiboi song~ Tunasondeka “Ikikataa there is no regrettingTuna i-switch back to factory setting“. (In absolute direct translation he says) If it does not work there’s no regretting we switch back to factory settings.)
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If you are a chiefly british, whatever category, man just heal. Inflicting pain or turmoil on others wont make it any better for you. If it does sir/madam you need help asap! In retrospect you remake the situation and get stuck in the loop of wondering if it hurts others as much as it hurts you. Your trauma or situation is valid but face thy demons, thanks in advance for making the world a better place. Hang the hat chief.
I think the hardest thing about taking a break from something is getting back to it. You want to come back with a bang, to be at a better place than you left of or easily pick up from where you left off. The self criticism and questioning if its really the right time or whether you have the right edge to start off is enough to hold one back.
Well, nothing is a guarantee so here goes nothing. We try to get back on the writing scene again. With nothing but a hope that this time I will learn from mistakes made and correct them without taking a long break. What’s that you’ve been meaning to get back to? If you were looking for the sign, this is it TRY AGAIN!!!!
Naz– the pride that comes with knowing that you are loved no matter what you do.
To growth
To seeing a new day and understanding your worth
To being brave enough to acknowledge weak times
Yet vulnerable enough to know change is inevitable and accept it
To tears of joy and even pain it’s a memory that the gain wasn’t easy
Whether a gain of a win or a scar it’s a bookmark to a lesson
To friendships that come and go not leaving out those that grow to family with no blood ties
It’s part of the growth to understand that priorities differ as life elevates you to different levels
So don’t be stuck at the crossroad or journey to tomorrow with a burden of a was; would or should have been…
Honey you won’t breathe right and you will shield yourself from the much deserved sunlight for growth
To growth of spirit; body; mind and soul
A progress to your beyond~ Ngugi
Photocredits📸: Delvin_044
🎶 Happy birthmonth to me and all August babies (Bev,Kinna, AlvinChipmunk {thee birthday mates}💃; Sleeky; Ralph; Mung’ara; Mitchie; Aggie; Nyokabi; JeanKarey;Vero my super talented niece;Alice and Hannah cousin; and every other August baby✨
Happy birthday to us happy birthday dear us 🎶 … <Inserts my “bafu” records voice>😂 I literally kill Whitney Houston notes 😌or so I like to think😂
This post was meant to be out on the 9th of August 😂 well for some reason something felt missing you know… Like it was incomplete. It actually reminded me of the number of times one hesitates to do things so by the time you actually master the courage to do it; it’s either too late or doesn’t necessarily make the same impact it would have. ( I could draft that on the list of lessons my new year is teaching me.)
Appreciation
Among other lessons is to appreciate each person who is there for you because growing up means at times choosing different paths. At times friendships and relationships get strained; keeping tabs gets hectic.
Model:Bev thee twin💖✨
Worth it or not?
The other thing is wondering if what you really doing is worth it or what’s the point of it all? That’s necessarily where naz comes in for me it’s what reminds me to keep on or the refilling point of strength. Simply because I could make a bunch of errors or my wins could be very small to what I expected but there’s people to smile and say way to go now get what you wanted in the first place. Putting out sparks of doubt. Therefore which ever month is your birth month I hope it brings you Naz enough to let you face the new year to accomplish and conquer all you aspire in order to flourish.😊
Peace
The one final thing I have learnt and is still perfecting the art is peace with myself. For who I am with flaws, inadequacies that mar my being because only then can I make progress
Lastly the art of not apologising for being different.
April Green~ Wild woman do not be afraid to dance alone (the earth has been waiting for you)
Happy birthday month when it’s your turn✨; happy birthday; have some cake and plenty of Naz.
Goodness that’s tapped from souls of good intentions
Intentions to make tomorrow a better day
I am looking
Looking forward to times
Times where opportunities won’t be lined up based on one’s gender
Gender nor background nor ethnicity won’t matter
Matter like what one has to bring to the table
I am looking
Looking to hold this much joy
Joy that there’s peace
Peace that’s unending
I am looking for you to flourish and be happy
Looking forward to this immense joy here being a constant even on heavy days
Days that lack ways seemingly to make it to the other end
I am looking…
Looking towards progress
Progress that gives a rise to a better tomorrow
Tomorrow that has you accepting things in the past that may not have power to alter
Power to alter but strength to overcome and stand tall
Will you look with me?❤
Model: Alvin Rita Mwende✨ dame wa nguvu✨💪
Queen Latifah in her book “Put on your crown” says
Inside every woman there’s a queen, and you owe it to her and to God to do everything in your power to live your most fulfilled and happy life. Don’t let the moments pass you by. Let your inner queen’s voice come through loud and clear. Be strong, be authentic, be you, and you’ll do her proud.
Reina sonriente is Spanish for smiling queen👑👸
Just another piece inspired by a smile thank you for letting me use the picture.
Visualizing facials, gestures and movements made as reflexes; stares with eyes boring into each other
Just hanging
Trying to make meaning of it all
It ended too soon
Or came to a halt without notice
Should there be signs or alerts that a heart is about to break
Should there be stages in letting go
Where the system says…
We notice slight changes and the forecast says interests have shifted and feelings no longer exist or…
We notice it’s time you come to terms with note having them around physically
You can only have them in your heart because maybe just maybe it would stop us
It would hold us back from looking for every piece of them in those they’ve left behind
And we’d look within ourselves for everything they meant to us
Instead of just hanging
Onto the last of everything we shared
But that’s just how it is right it’s what makes a bond solid
The ache that sears within and without
Drawing the curtains onto every glimmer
And it feels like hanging~Ngugi
I have not shared my writing in a while I would like to apologize for that first. I will be telling how it all happened slowly and in due time.
Meanwhile, I would like to thank my late granny Alice may her soul rest in peace, for being my muse even after departing.
This particular piece is basically inspired by what it actually feels like a mixture of glad she is not in pain and goodness gracious… she is gone for good!! The journey of coming to terms.
I wouldn’t know where to begin to tell about her. If empathy had a goal, it would have been her, reserved but shared her wisdom when required.She remains a hero to us for fighting Dementia for a long while . I cannot thank her enough for sparking a passion in mental health.
The point of this blog is not to derive pity or to say words I never got to tell her; it is to reach out to a grieving soul; whether for the loss of a loved one to death or to misunderstanding that seem to be beyond amendment, not even a proper goodbye.
I hope you find peace. I hope as you think of the million and one ways things would be better than they are or you’d have spent time better with them, you learn to let yourself live a life free of regret.
Whether you got to see them before they rested in peace: or you made them leave: or you just cannot get over what they put you through, I hope you summon the courage to accept the situation as is.It is hard and it will hurt no way to escape that. Let it. As long as it doesn’t leave you hanging.
If you have time to whine and complain about something then you have the time to do something about it~ Anthony J. D’Angelo.
Comply
Least you become an outcast
Eyes struck by tears
Body held together by fears
Oh yes they steer the dos
And don’ts
The how not to and what not to and the why not to
In case I forget to
Run and hide from the hope’s glimmers
It’s just a moment of shimmers
Then back to darkness
I want to scream but will you listen
I want to cry but will you perceive
The desperate cries of on who’s different receive
because
our place is out and away from the rest until we learn to comply
gnash in loneliness until we master the art of comply
to silence to the norm.
~Ngugi
Monachopsis is the subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.
Now being out of place could happen in so many situations but it all narrows down to being different whether its in opinion, ideals; thoughts; choices; behavior.
This is from varying aspects of life some that we are born into like gender: others that we are raised into such as culture and morals: others that we pick for ourselves such as preferences of music. Basically in that lengthy statement I was pointing out on DIVERSITY.
Its human nature to be afraid of what we do not know or understand. That basically ends up in guys hurdling up to forge a sort of movement against what the are not about or not.
Therefore everything ends up being like a revolution to compete on who gets what they stand for heard even if its at the expense of another.
With that…battle of the sexes continues, misunderstanding of races. intolerance of tribes all the way to having different body shapes and sizes. All we are doing is , making each other monachopsis.
The truth is in order to make one feel oppressed or to feel oppressed one is a misfit. The moment we understand that differences don’t set up apart they make us beautiful… I mean would the 🌈 rainbow fascinate if it was one color?
Yes we are one…You and I regardless of beliefs, culture, opinions, gender, race, ethnicity, height, body size and shape… Beyond all that we are humans. Maya Angelou says…
No matter what the difference is.. It shouldn’t stop us from journeying beyond. No monachopsis❤
You’re afraid to let yourself be happy because you know it never lasts.~ J. B
Yes, I am afraid of the dark,
Ever since I felt the devil’s nails scratch my back,
And the demon faces could never stop invading my night;
They carry their knives
Taunting this feeble life
Of mine,
Trying to make me go blind
And not see the pleasure of happiness waft scents of hopelessness
Blow winds of terror. Remind me that I am nothing…. but a horror
So everything will wither
As long as it went through my palms
Don’t get me wrong I intended no harm
But the dark spells out fear
Someone with shears?
Anyone?
Shred this wool let me see the light. Anyone with a flashlight I could borrow your light
To shine over my plight
I am afraid of the dark~ Sleeky&Nemo
Eccedentesiast refers to someone who hides pain behind a smile.
Do you have a brain? Is it healthy? Do you know what being mentally healthy is all about?
Mental health is an issue that has been echoed very much this year in an effort to fight the stigma accompanied with mental illnesses as well as myths. First and foremost;
Yes there is an official month for mental health. It good to note that as far as one has a mind honey you had better cared for your mental health. It is defined as a level of psychological wellness or absence of mental illness that is functioning at a satisfactory level of emotional and behavioral adjustment.
Mental health can be disrupted by issues going down in one’s life. Technically from the description of who knew is in an example of three things (I will use myself as the subject matter)
1. I am a female.
2. I am a student.
3. I am a Kenyan.
The above three points are basic things that could cause stress as one proceeds to break them down;
I being a female has the question of societal expectations that one learns as they grow up some are unnecessary and seem okay because they have been practised from the days of my ancestors. The radar used to know if one is ideal. It goes both ways being a male too.
Being a student you are under pressure of performing; assignments; enjoying your youth; maintaining a healthy social life; so as to make something of yourself and your time. Now don’t get me wrong passing is good but how you get there can become a lot to handle at times probably you are doing I course you don’t like or other aspects such as fees are distracting.
Lastly was your country issues going on such as unrest could foster an environment of fear and uncertainty; the economy being higher than you left it yester night could be an issue can you afford a meal to have; a roof over your head?
The point am driving home is that mental health affects you and I; thus we shouldn’t be scared of talking about it rather be curious of finding out ways to stay healthy mentally. Let’s journey together from being eccedentesiast to being insouciant
I will exhaust as many issues as I can here for better understanding.
JourneyToBeyond 